Monday, January 21, 2008

picture this

FAM JAM AND HOLIDAY

My little sister and my mom, durring the hallway dance party. What is the hallway dance party, you ask? While in Switzerland I burned my mom a couple of cds - one of which was a dance cd, full of oldies and goodies and fergie. Tired of waiting for doctor calls, we threw it on and danced the afternoon away.




If you scroll up and down really quick, its almost like you were there!

Whatever the song, and whatever the dance move, it all required concentration and punching movements!



In order to be a true guitar hero, you need a back up band!
The Wii and Guitar Hero seemed to be family favourites on Christmas day. We could have been a Future Shop commercial.

The Spice Girls...or something like that.

The missing Spice Girl

considering how much mom loves 'don't forget the lyrics' it looks as though she has.

NEW YEARS



standard caro and dana at absinthe - hand clapping versus hands in the air. WE NEED NEW DANCE MOVES PEOPLE


Note that all these pictures are pre sweat soaked hair and Gilberto's 'baptism'.

LONDON
hey hey - lookit me! i'm in London!

This is to ensure tourists don't get themselves killed while crossing the street...they KIND OF help.


meeting the queen! (just outside Buckingham palace)

London Calling (totally aware that London Bridge and Tower Bridge aren't the same)



Saturday, January 19, 2008

spice up your life

well with a small amount of good news coming in (mom is in good spirits, doctors like her, chemo starts soon, etc) i figured i could move on to a more standard blog and update on the good stuff from the past month or so.

AUNTY TINA'S HAVING CHRISTMAS, LA LA LA

The Holidays, like the actual days of celebration (new years and christmas) were pretty damn fantastic. Christmas was spent at my aunts house where she outdid herself again - i swear i've never seen or enjoyed as man appetizers as I did there. By the time desert came around I had no clue what I was eating because i'm pretty sure I got the look. You know the look. Caroline knows it well anyhow - the glazed eyes, the grumble, the head roll - the i've eaten way too much but there's no hope in trying to make me stop - look.

I don't know why people - like me - have a tendency to only talk about the food, weather and gifts when discussing christmas. Or to open the discussion with it. The best thing about the holidays wasn't the con dvd (hillarious) or the fig and goat cheese (amazing) but it was spending the day at Aunt Tina's surrounded by family. For serious, I love that group of people...you the group..my family. the group of us played guitar hero and wii and sang karaoke and had such a good time that if you were on the outside looking in you would have thought the whole display was a showing of 'we sing in sillyville - christmas special' (which us four Herlihey kids did watch on christmas eve by the by. nothing like watching that elf with the speech impediment make gusty a pair of really really gay looking glasses all the while singing and dancing with some white bread kids and their adopted asian sister who seems able to only speak in christmas rhymes. seriously, best movie ever...but i digress). Anyhow, it was fun and festive and all captured on camera.

CLICK HERE TO SEE THE CHRISTMAS ALBUM



TWO THOUSAND ZERO ZERO (photos to be added - BLOGGER IS NOT COOPERATING)

New Years was spent with a different family - yes those crazy kids from hamilton and geneva gathered together for a pretty crazy night out at absinthe where we got a free bottle of champagne, i got a birthday shout out, and everyone lost thirteen pounds from dancing all night in a crowded, poorly ventilated basement club. Even before Gilberto decided to 'baptize' me, my hair was drenched and everyone was oh so shiny. Seriously, that place NEEDS air conditioning. Or something.

Caroline and I wore matching shirts, which at first I was weary of, and later on...well later on I don't think I cared too much. Many pairs of sunglasses were pass around as well, and we all looked kind of ridiculous at times, wearing our shades indoors. But we didn't care, we were being young, having fun, ringing in the new year the best way we knew how - by being crazies from hamilton.

SPICE UP YOUR LIFE (video and photos coming soon)

As soon as I landed in Geneva, I said 'screw you' to jet lag and hopped on a plane 12 hours later to bring me BACK to london (I had stopped there for my layover - poor planning, I know I know).

We had taken easy jet to Lutton airport, which is actually pretty far from the city (even though it says its in London). Luckily we planned and caught an easy bus (seriously this easy brand stuff is magical) into the city. It was amazing getting off the bus and trying to get directions on metro tickets and tube lines and ordering a sausage roll (tasty english snack that didn't cost us 6 pounds - or a million dollars once converted)...for the first time in our travel experience, everyone spoke English - no, they even spoke it better than us with their cute-as-a-button accents! Traveling was going to be easy?! We could read street signs! WE COULD NAVIGATE! Anyhow, it was somewhat calming knowing we wouldn't have to struggle with French, or learn sign language because we couldn't speak Czech or Italian.

We were able to quickly find our hotel (yes a hotel, yes Steph has connections, yes I exploit them for my own good) and once settling, and since it was only noon, we went on a mini tour of the city. First though, we appeased our appetite at a cafe near our closest tube stop. We noticed that a film crew we had seen in the tube was now eating there. We later found out that it was a French film that was being shot - hence why we heard a few of them tossing around French words. (Later on, when returning, they had their craft services table out in the open and I stole a tuna sandwich. I mean come on - who leaves a table of food unattended and doesn't expect a Canadian tourist to steal from it? SERIOUSLY) Anyways, the mini tour, and by mini tour I mean we got off at one stop and walked around, often stumbling upon landmarks "oh is that big ben?" "I found the London eye" "i don't know what that is, it looks important though". We also tried to find out the price for a theatre show (about a million dollars, once converted), but decided that we didn't need that experience at the cost of our life savings. That night we instead went to a fellow Multimedia student's house (Laura, you will remember him as 'john lennon' from third year) who Steph knew. There we ate, and chatted with..get this... MORE MAC STUDENTS. yes yes, we are taking over the world.

The next day we went to the Camden markets - the place where all the cool hipsters must get their kafiya's because you can find them for 2 for 5 pounds, and if you look hard enough, 2 for 3.98. We bought about ten scarves between us. The Camden Market, anyways, was highly suggested to us by the Mac students living in London. And it was a really interesting experience. Just rows and rows of clothing, scarves, punk gear, etc. A street of awesome stores, a dark back alley with a ton of cheap food. I know my mom wanted me to eat traditional English food, but instead we went with the 'when you go there, you have to eat the 2 pound asian food' and so we did. We saw the punks we were told to look out for, I bought a pair of vans (pink and black checkered that I couldn't find in Canada for years) and sunglasses, and scarves, and you know, random crap.

Later that night we went to see Tower Bridge - which isn't London bridge, but should be - and made our way to the reason we were in London in the first place - The Spice Girl show.

Now unfortunately, the only tube line to bring us to the O2 - the concert arena (which is MASSIVE by the way) was down, as well as three other lines, so after some confusion we had to bus it for an hour to O2. Luckily we had a lot of entertainment on the way. In the form of some girls Frankie's age with some sort of mp3 player, who were all singing a long to the hits of the Spice Girls. A woman beside us videotaped some of it (as we didn't bring our cameras for fear of them not allowing them - unfortunately they did and we have no proof of our attendance), but I don't have a copy of that video...this is all very unfortunate.

Anyways, we made it to O2, and luckily the fifteen minutes it took us to walk around to where our seats were was just enough time to get settled and see the show begin!

Now let me just say, simply enough, that the show was great, incredibly entertaining. I don't know if its because the girls were actually good at what they did, or if it was because 10 years ago seeing the Spice Girls would not have had the same fun nostalgic atmosphere as it did this time around. I think everyone there was old enough to have appreciated that these songs and ladies were not only massive hits during the time of their release, but that they themselves - the audience - were, pretty much, children when they last clutched onto a new Spice Girl record. So it was a lot of fun, kinda like being super excited and dancing to fred penner or something...but only if he was in a short sequins skirt and had a bunch of back up dancers and could fill a huge stadium and get everyone dancing and singing along for an hour and a half to pop hits from the 90's....ok nothing like fred penner.

Then we left London. (you know, after hours of switching buses and sleeping in the airport for our early monday morning flight.)

I must return, however. MUST.

Friday, January 18, 2008

slip your heart into my chest

i will never lie when i write on this thing
i can't. not when writing is an extension of emotion, experience, whatever.
maybe i'll be wrong, and maybe i'll be delusional, and i might even omit, but i won't lie.
so i won't say the past couple of days have been rough, not because its a lie, but because its not enough.
a couple of people have asked me - how you doing - and i try to be as honest as possible.
sometimes i'm ok, sometimes its as if nothing is happening and i can laugh and have a good time and do my work without interruption and i can concentrate and i can think positively and be really hopeful and optimistic.
sometimes i'm numb, 'stay awake in the night, just staring at the ceiling above' - no thoughts, nothing. just there. on pause.
sometimes it crashes down on me, and it feels like i'm suffocating. someone is sitting on my chest, someone has punched me in the gut. and it will come at random times, a song will set me off, the night, a word.
and none of this is surprising, or it shouldn't be. it seems adequate and reasonable. it seems like the standard response. we're all raw right now, we're all selfish because we need to learn how to process our emotions.
so ive been keeping a journal, external to the blog, and i've set my self up to go to counseling and a support group - my mum told me before i left to vindicate my emotions, and i intend to do that.
if im going to be strong i'm going to need to learn how to process these reactions, how to understand how there can be darkness and light, how to find hope when you feel like you've just lost it. and i need to be strong, stronger than that, so i can lend some of my strength of my mom when she needs it, to my sisters and brother when they need it, to my dad, to my aunt and uncle, to my cousins. and im not setting myself up to be some kind of hero or champion, because hopefully they can lend some to me too.

and hope, that word...for so long it seemed to arbitrary to me. like something you wrote really large on a piece of construction paper in grade 3 and decorated with sparkles. it wasn't as if i've never understood it, it just felt whimsical. but now it carries so much.
because to have hope, and loose it... the feeling of disappointment reveals all that you had with it. And to find it again, despite the circumstances, despite the anger and the pity, despite the difficulty, reveals how much you gain with it.

How to explain this...

I was walking to work yesterday. And it was almost as if, my life was on repeat, just a little distorted.

I was upset, to say the least, and making my way up the path to the back of the office.
And it had been raining in Geneva the past couple days, but today it was bright and sunny. Not too sunny, not too bright. It was a calm light. And the air was crisp. And everything was green and yellow and orange. And I thought of how much this reminded me of that one sunday in October, when the moment was just right and a butterfly was by my ankle, and how perfect everything had been then. And when I looked to my feet, I saw a fat pug. You know one of those dogs whose fat rolls on its back like the fat rolls on Timbalands neck? Anyways, I found it funny, so odd and misplaced so ridiculous, and yet really really suiting. And again, there was that moment, where it all made sense even without thinking about it or having the answers or knowing the question.

And I guess that is where I'm going to find my hope. In the moments of clarity, in the moments when everything seems so much bigger than me, when words and emotions aren't arbitrary or trivial or whimsical - but when they are tangible, at your feet. I'll take it as it comes. and nobody said it was easy, and nobody said it was going to be. but I believe in fighting, i believe in finding strength, i believe in finding hope.

Monday, January 7, 2008

Are You Ten Years Ago?

another 2007 round-up.

1) Where did you ring in 2007?
in Florida, watching Law and Order.

2) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
single

3) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
I completed my last semester at Mac and did about four French classes in Geneva.

4) How did you earn your keep?
Working as a research assistant and office assistant and then working as a webmaster / communication assistant. I like to assist, a lot.

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
no.

6) Did you encounter the police?
Yes - noise violations during our last party. Trish and I talked our way out of a fine.

7) Where did you go on vacation?
Florida, Italy, France, Prague, Amsterdam (does that count as vacation or trips??)

8) What did you purchase that was over $500?
macbook, camera

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
cousin - Katie.

10) Do you know anybody who passed away?
Nina

11) Have you run into anybody you graduated high school with?
Unintentionally...no..

12) Did you move anywhere?
Hamilton to Mississauga, Mississauga to Geneva.

13) What sporting events did you go to?
didn't.

14) What concerts did you go to?
shout out out out out, Tokyo Police Club / Cities in Dust, Apostle of Hustle, The Sounds / Jimmy Eat World, Feist, The Tragically Hip

15) Where do you live now?
Geneva, Switzerland

16) Describe your birthday.
I watched a 24 hour Law and Order marathon, we did something in Florida...I don't really remember. It was relaxing and I think Frankie and I went to Barnes and Noble... I think the weekend after a few of us went out to snooty fox and when I returned Zach had given me his xbox and games and had it all set up in the kitchen.

17) What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2007?
move to Europe.

18) What is one thing you regretted this year?
being bitchy when I got home in September

19) What's something you learned about yourself?
That I don't always need a plan.

20) Any new additions to your family?
Andrew Folwell

21) What was your best month?
Uh probably March or April. Whenever I finished that damn thesis. I was so effing proud of that thing. >>> WWW.HIGHTOPCHUCKSANDBUBBLEGUM.COM <<< Plus I like, finished school and stuff. It was a bittersweet month with all the finishings and movings and stuff.

22) What from pop culture will you remember 2007 by?
rehab and crazy pop stars and how much I loved video on trial

23) How would you rate this year with a scale from 1 (shitty) to 10 (excellent)?
7.5

Saturday, January 5, 2008

the list

I meant to do this pre 2008, but life got in the way.

Top 10 Albums of 2007

1. The Reminder - Feist
2. The Con - Tegan and Sara
3. † - Justice
4. Fur and Gold - Bat for Lashes
5. Oi Oi Oi - Boys Noize
6. Alright Still - Lily Allen
7. Not Saying, Just Saying - Shout Out Out Out Out (technically 2006 but I was late on it)
8. IsIs EP- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
9. No One Will Know - Bella
10. In Rainbows - Radiohead

Top 10 Songs of 2007

1. 1234 - Feist
2. D.A.N.C.E - Justice
3. Videotape - Radiohead
4. Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
5. The Con - Tegan and Sara
6. Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5
7. Homecoming - The Teenagers
8. Bounce - Timbaland
9. Sweaty - Muscles
10. Secret March - The Wet Secrets

Top 5 Guilty Pleasures of 2007

1. Get Outta My Head - Ashlee Simpson
2. Umbrella - Rhianna
3. Gimme More - Britney Spears
4. Before He Cheats - Carrie Underwood
5. This is Why I'm Hot - MIMS

Top 5 Music Videos of 2007

1. 1234 - Feist
2. D.A.N.C.E - Justice
3. Cheap Like Sebastian - Apostle of Hustle
4. What's A Girl to Do - Bat for Lashes
5. Alala - CSS (technically 2006, but again, I was late)